as a child what did you picture life would look like when you grew up? was there a white dress? a family? a career as a movie star?

i'm not sure why but growing up i never pictured my future. i don't remember wanting to get married. or longing to be in a certain profession. i had no expectations. until recently.

it didn't hit me until after college. i want a family. a home. to be close to the ocean. i want to travel. and show my kids the world. i want to live in a close community. i want to make sure i never take myself to seriously. i want to make sure i bring joy to everyone i know. i want to love...all the time.

its a little scary to have things that i want. life is a lot easier when you just live being happy with whatever comes. and i am happy...more then happy. but i am trying my best to let the things i dream of to feel welcomed into my life.

saying this all. i would have never guessed as a child that life would be this amazing. i think my reality now is better then any dream i would have had growing up. life is all to good. and i am more then grateful.

i love my now. and i look forward to my future.