we have the choice to create the life we want. (i know hello oprah). but we ReALLy do. a life of risk. a life of love. a life of settlement. a life of patience. a life of adventure. what do you want? what do you have? do they match-chances are some but not all. let them! make it so. you are the only one who is going to do that for you. so step up and speak out and act accordingly.

wow this past year. really WOW. good job universe: throwing us into it all and knowing we will come out the other end. i feel a bit (and this is dramatic) but that my life was a little like dorothy in the wizard of oz...with all black and white style scenes. things were great: nice and dependable, ultra dependable. and then boom you meet a stranger...a tornado rolls in...you go into some world were everyone is different and animals talk...then the stranger turns out to be a pseudo wizard. ok, so not that far. but defiantly the black and white scenes...meet some strangers who open up a new whole world to you...tornado...learn a lot about yourself bit.

my kiddies are back. its AMAZING to see them. they are sooo much my heart. there is one in particular who has grown SO much in the time i have known him. how he talks, his ability to create, and deal....he is a different person. today as he was telling me a story he was making up on the spot about a dead pig who came to life in his classroom then ran to DC and jumped on obama's head. in the end the pig ran all over the white house writing his name on the walls..."PIG". :) the whole time he was telling me the story i couldn't help but be CrAZY happy. he has grown so much in his development. a year ago there was no way he could create a story that had a start, middle, and an end. he is growing up. for a minute i wished i was where he is now. with all the possibilities ahead of him, time to learn, and soo many new things to discover. the moment quickly came to a halt when i realized that i'm still there: we all are still there...still growing up and learning how to write out story with a start, middle and an end.

in my day to day i have the chance to change. my life and thanks to the universe...others people's lifes too...we each do. maybe thats why i love strangers. every time i talk to someone on the train, or the homeless person on the street, or my waiter....i have another opportunity to learn how connected we all are. to be taught a lesson. to make a friend. to share my love. i can't get enough. i really can't! my friend was joking around the other day when a waiter invited me to his recording studio to record some of my music. she said to get a list of my friends you would have to hand someone the new york city phonebook. i can't help myself.

life is meant to be discovered. i am putting it out there. and saying this year...i am good enough. no questioning. no wondering. no second guessing. my songs are meant to be song. my dreams are meant to be followed through on. my love is meant to be given away. why would the universe grant us a gift...of song or love or peace or inspiration...other for them to be shared?

soooo. open up your phonebook and let the people know. you have something...you have everything to give! let everyone see it and live it with you and with each other. life is meant to be lived in color...TECHNICOLOR color. place yourself in the tornado. and be ready to grOW. AH! its all to brilliant.