there is a new movie coming out at christmas about a little mouse who isn't afraid of what mice are supposed to be afraid off. when his classmates are shown a picture of a knife they all hide under their desks. he sits, looking at the picture...in awe. he says it looks like a sword. in response his father says "son, there are a lot of wonderful things to be afraid of in this life. if you could only learn to fear them". fear. i see things, know of things that i am really afraid of. failure. lonelyness. hitting a platou in life. sky diving. i think because i am so afraid of these things, it makes me fight really hard so they never happen (other then sky diving...i'm doing that...facing that fear is going to feel awesome...when i'm on the ground). some of my fears have recently started coming to the for front. and i'm trying to tell myself 'you can do this' 'think about it' 'you have the capability...to work...to organize...to keep up...to give...to love'. melting in presence of fear is going to do no one any good. i'm going to make mistakes...but i'm not going to quit (i'm putting this in writing, so i have to hold myself to it) i'm not going to quit. i'm going to eat some chocolate. get over it. make a plan. and succeed. there are so many things to fear in life, but we can learn to put them aside and the situation as a challenge.